Do you ever have one of those days when you feel like you are doing a lousy job at parenting? Today was one of those days. I feel like I am struggling all over again with Porter after he had this fantastic streak of awesome behavior. He is acting like a typical impulsive boy but times 100. Which I really do not know how to handle. And he is doing things that I just want to pull my hair and scream "REALLY?! How did you see that as a good idea?!" Like today. He was in his usual spot after school these days. Time-out. Which I hate but I will always back up the teacher. I was downstairs battling the homework monster when I smell a burning smell. As I walk upstairs it gets stronger and I see Porter literally streak in a blur to his room. I run into my room and my bathroom to find that he has lit the bathroom garbage on fire. WHAT THE?! It is under control but the damage is done. My room is filled the the smoke smell and there are ashes all in the toilet room. LUCKILY no one was hurt and it was contained and put out before I got up there by Porter who I am sure was thinking "CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!!!". After I admittedly went berserk on him I put him on the phone with his dad. Bottom line- he did not do it maliciously, he was curios. He KNEW he should not have done that but this is where his Achilles heel is put into play...that dang impulse of his. He lets himself act before thinking it through. So needless to say he spent the rest of the day with his nose literally in a corner while I repeated a bazillion times the mantra "Do not touch fire, listen to your teacher, stay on task" over and over and over and over. He was literally in tears because that is pretty much all I would say to him all night. He went to bed right after dinner with a hug and an I love you. Still, I feel like I messed up somewhere along the way for him to be this way. My dad assures me this a boy thing and it is magnified because he is my first boy therefor I am cutting my boy parenting teeth on him. I just hate it because I don't want him to act this way. I want people to see the good in him. I want to see the good in him more often.
I am just hoping for better days to come. I hear boys get easier as they get older but girls get harder....grrrrreat.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Parenting-Fail
Posted by Tiffanyrose at 5:43 PM
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Ummm....I feel like I fail as a parent almost EVERY day! But I love the Courage quote from President Monson in the "ABC" article of the Ensign this month - the part that says sometimes REAL courage, is to say at the end of the day,"I am going to do better tomorrow." I used to go to bed every day thinking this and thinking it was a BAD thing to "try better tomorrow" but really, it takes a lot of COURAGE to KEEP TRYING!!!! And I also love his quote, "Never let a problem to be solved be more important than a person to be loved." I have that hanging where I see it daily and it reminds me that problems will always come (big or small) but what matters most is that we LOVE THEM!!!
Oh, and I am with you on the boy thing...my 3 year old is driving me crazy with his constant "curiosity" but it really is just a boy thing! Sean lit an item on fire in the bathroom once and there's still a mark on our counter in WC that bears the reminder of it. Except it wasn't trash, and I'm pretty sure he was older than Porter. Anyway, sorry for the novel, but I just feel for you and can relate - and you ARE A GREAT MOM!!! Are you kidding? Don't be so hard on yourself. It's that dang Y chromosome, not you!!!
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